well just wat i had hoped wouldnt happen(always does)...i feel down again. really never stops...i just wanna die and bleeeed..i have nothing to live for anymore, and really never did...i was a mistake and was told so over and over....Im sick of it all...i just wanna die..dont wanna hurt anymore, dont wanna be rejected anymore..i wanna feel..i wanna be happy, i want help and i wanna live a normal 17 year old life....i want more out of life..i dont wanna have to be drunk and bleed to feel happy....im tired of bleeding and itred of crying and pain....i feel so stupid and like im a nobody, and i feel so so bad....im sorry tish if this makes you mad/sad...i really try to feel better i cant....i need porfessional help....tish you would make a great psycoclogist i promise and maybe you can help me one day..well having you helps me 1000000000000000000000000000000000x's infinity i promise...i just feel ive let you down like i cant make you happy...i cant eeven make me happy..i hate my ugly self and i just wanna die....i dont like the hospital, but i need it...i need the help..cause as a cutter i dont think not one doesnt wanna stop..in theyr hearts they do and they wanna feel better and wanna be able to feel hapiness and have a good life as well...they wanna have normal families that care or whatever theyr problem is they want it to be better. I just want to be a good person and not be bad....i dont wanna feel bad and i wanna be happy about myself and who i am...with high self esteem....i w a n t t o b e g o o d.....i w a n t t o f e e l h a p p y a n d n o t s a d a n y m o r e e v e r.....
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|| I agree. And you know, nobody has a "normal" life as you call it, we all have problems, can be little or big, we all happen to be sad at times, and all want to have a "normal" life when this doesn't really exist. For exemple, the people who don't have much money. They wish they had more because they think it would make them happy. But when you see on the rich people's side, you realize that material things are not giving happiness, and they wish they weren't rich, because they are sad as well, for some other reasons. And it's the same in so many situations. You know, sometimes I feel really really bad because of my dad, and because of the fact that he doesn't show a little bit of affection, but one day he like called me a nickname I looked at him weirdly, and was like almost shocked, wondering why he did this... You know that kinda proves that whatever we have and we get, we are never happy. Or we can be on some side, and on some others not. The fact is that insead of focusing on the sad things (which we all have) we need to focus on the happy ones. Because if you look at the good ones, you get better, whereas if you don't, you'll stay in place, do you see what I mean? You just need to know that even if there are bad things, there are always getting better, one way or another, or at least, the happy things take more place than the bad things.